Essay: The Last Game

July, 2005

It is a hot July morning and I am sewing. Not a good combination, since I hate the heat and I am a terrible seamstress. I am sewing my oldest stepson’s baseball patch on his baseball shirt for a tournament. I should consider myself lucky, actually. He gave me the shirts and patches this morning and told me he needed them this afternoon. Usually it’s much more last minute than that. 

We are lucky to live almost adjacent to the High School’s baseball field, and I can hear the announcers and the crack of the bats and the shouts of the coaches and fans. It’s morning, but the tournament has started. We don’t play till tonight, though.

I’ve done this before. At home, in motels, in the car on the way to tournaments, and — truly at the last minute — on the sidelines of the baseball field as they were warming up for their first game. Why can’t they make these patches as iron-ons? Jani is 18, and has been playing on the district tournament team since he was about 10. My younger stepson, Pete, is 16 and has been playing competitive soccer as goalie since he was very small.

I’m doing this for the last time. When Jani plays ball in college, someone else will do this. We still have two more years before Pete goes to college, but Jani is the first one leaving the nest, and it will be hard.

My daughter grew up on the baseball fields and soccer fields of Fauquier County. She was born during the wintertime, so she was an infant in a carrier her first year, a toddler barely walking the next year, a 2 year old the next season, and then a precocious 3-year-old who captured everyone’s hearts.

It’s been so much fun to watch these boys through the years, growing and developing as athletes, as men, and as members of a team. It’s a small town still, and the teams over the years have consisted of mostly the same players, give or take a few. This baseball tournament will be the last time this team plays together. Next year they will all be in college. Not only will they lose the closeness they have as friends and as a team, but we parents, who have spent all these years together in the stands, will lose our close-knit group too. And they will all leave holes in their families.

Next to me, with his head on my foot, is Jani’s puppy, a six month old Border Collie. He is totally not going to understand this college thing when the time comes. 

Great. Now I’ve just noticed that I’ve been doing this the hard way, stitching from the back to the front involving multiple stabs per stitch rather than stitching from the front and placing each stitch accurately. I reverse my technique. But now I notice the stitches are getting smaller and closer together. Am I finally getting the hang of this, or do I just not want the project to end?

It’s so hot because I am sitting outside on the back porch doing this. I can’t find anywhere in the house where the light is good enough for me to work my “magic” with the thread. I’ve also just stabbed myself with the needle for the thousandth time in my patch-sewing career. So this shirt, like all the others in the past, will have drops of blood on it. And drops of the sweat that’s dripping from my forehead. But this one will have tears, too, because I’ve started to cry.

Pam Kamphuis
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Pam Kamphuis is an editor and writer for Piedmont Virginian Magazine and Piedmont Lifestyle Magazines.

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